A few weeks ago I got some disappointing news that I was hoping would turn out to be wonderful and life changing for me. I have spent over 10 years in this business of blogging/video hosting & was praying this opportunity was finally “the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow!” How long does a person hold onto their passion and believe that they are on the right path? How many “no’s” or “not right nows” do we have to hear before we either make this happen or walk away from our dreams? “Actions speak louder than words” so when we choose competitive careers we just have to “keep on trucking” and not get “all bent out of shape” when things take a lot longer than we had anticipated. Sometimes that is “much easier said than done.”To top it all off…
I write for many other platforms as well as my own blog. “As luck would have it,” I recently received an email from examiner.com informing me that they were deactivating my account after 6 loyal years of writing for them without pay! (Oh sorry I think I may have made $50 since 2009 when I started with them.) I was often in the top 5 of two separate categories with regards to my monthly contributions so you can imagine my surprise when I opened my email from examiner telling me they no longer required my services. Are you frigging kidding me? So I guess I am not supposed to “cry over spilled milk” and just deal with their rudeness because I am destined for bigger things ahead right? Hey I know that, but it doesn’t excuse the blatant dismissal from a company that I gave my devoted free service to for all this time. I guess there is truth to the statement that “all that glitters is not gold” 😦 but then “when one door closes another one opens,” which did happen in this case.
As a huge believer in visualization I have finally realized that I might be in need of some big ass binoculars! I am obviously not seeing things clearly as I should be because what I envision and what the Universe has in store are definitely not in sync. They say “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” well I can honestly tell you that I feel so strong right now that I could literally strangle the person who made up that cliché!
It’s really not a matter of feeling sorry for yourself after 10 years as it is feeling frustrated that all your hard work is REALLY appreciated mostly by those people who want to use your stuff “for free” to help their own business platforms. Regardless of how often this happens I will not give into using others to solely benefit myself. I am all about promoting people and offering assistance but am I being a fool in the end? Is “Give and Take” a thing of the past and that “One Good Turn Deserves Another” really only means a one-sided story in today’s world?
While it is true “you can’t please everyone,” “there is no time like the present” to try to make a difference in this world. I realize there is something I am doing that is preventing my goals to manifest completely but damn I am learning a lot along the way! Yahoo! Diversity is the key to staying young at heart after all. ❤
I have never been a “better safe than sorry” kind of girl and taking risks have always been my way of life. I can definitely say my life has not been dull and there is always a new adventure happening on a regular basis. When you don’t have family support or financial abundance it can either “make you or break you” and I decided to let nothing stand in my way of being all that I can be. It can be a lonely road at times especially when you reach milestones that go unacknowledged by those people who are supposed to be in your corner. Thank you to my amazing husband and those dear friends who have cheered me on & thank you to all those incredible men and women I have never met here in CyberLand for reading my book, my blogs & watching and commenting on my videos. I am grateful and it is because of you that keeps me believing and pursuing this long winding path I am walking on.
Maybe I really do need to “wake up and smell the coffee” because supposedly when “life gives you lemons you make lemonade.” (I prefer Martini’s) No one said life was easy and sometimes it really can be a bitch ass merry go round that makes you dizzy with anticipation. Will it work this time and am I finally on the right path to my higher achieving self? Nah…one more spin until you get it right lady! “Don’t call us we’ll call you!” Maybe you need to hear it one more time because “it’s just not your time yet.” Keep smiling and believe it will come because you know in your heart it is the right thing to do and “banging your head against that never ending brick wall” just doesn’t seem to hurt as much anymore. Because “it ain’t over til the fat lady sings” and “nothing ventured is nothing gained” so “put that in your pipe and smoke it!” ❤ “It’s all good at the end of the day” ❤
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